Jennifer Lawrence's name was destined to end up in lights. Growing up in Louisville, Ky., the Oscar-winning "Silver Linings Playbook" actress never planned to be famous -- but she somehow knew she would be anyway.
"I've never said this before, because there is no way to say it without it being completely misunderstood, but ever since I was really little, I always had a very normal idea of what I wanted: I was going to be a mom and I was going to be a doctor and I was going to live in Kentucky. But I always knew that I was going to be famous," Lawrence, 23, reveals in the September issue of Vogue, for which she was shot by photographer Mario Testino.
"I honest to God don't know how else to describe it," the cover girl continues. "I used to lie in bed and wonder, 'Am I going to be a local TV person? Am I going to be a motivational speaker?' It wasn't a vision. But as it's kind of happening, you have this buried understanding: Of course."
That said, Lawrence still struggles with the idea of living her life in the public eye. "I'm just really starting to feel like a monkey in a zoo," she admits.
"I teeter on seeming ungrateful when I talk about this, but I'm kind of going through a meltdown about it lately," she explains of her massive fame, which is likely to grow even more with the release of this year's "The Hunger Games: Catching Fire" and 2014's "X-Men: Days of Future Past." "All of a sudden the entire world feels entitled to know everything about me, including what I'm doing on weekends when I'm spending time with my nephew. And I don't have the right to say, 'I'm with my family.'"
"I am just not OK with it," she says. "It's as simple as that. I am just a normal girl and a human being, and I haven't been in this long enough to feel like this is my new normal. I'm not going to find peace with it."
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