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Whoa. Chris Brown is opening all the way up in a new trailer for his documentary "Welcome to My Life."

In the moody, three-minute clip, the "Back to Sleep" singer revisits his 2009 assault on then girlfriend Rihanna. He says their relationship was close to perfection when they first started dating. They were "real life rock stars. It was like a fairy tale," he explains. Everything changed when he lost control on that fateful night before the 2009 Grammy Awards.

The 26-year-old singer doesn't hold back as he discusses feeling suicidal during the aftermath of the horrific incident. "I felt like a f---ing monster," he says. "I was thinking about suicide and everything else. I wasn't sleeping, I wasn't eating. I just was getting high."

Chris's mother, Joyce Hawkins, also remembers that painful event. "That was the worst day of my life and probably his life," she says. "I felt like I was going to lose my child."

The trailer also explores Chris's rapid rise to fame, with fellow performers including Usher, Jennifer Lopez, DJ Khaled, Jamie Foxx and Rita Ora commenting on his undeniable gifts. "He is truly gifted, in a way we haven't seen in a long time," says Usher.

And that's the thing about Chris Brown, who is father to one-year-old daughter, Royalty. No matter how crazy, dangerous, or out of control his personal life gets, the music keeps his fans coming back for more. As Rita Ora says in the trailer, "He keeps giving us them bangers."

"If there was ever a doubt in your mind that Chris Brown was done, he was finished? I wouldn't bet on it," Brown says in the end.

The official release date for "Welcome to My Life" hasn't been announced.