Despite labeling their marriage "toxic," Kristin Cavallari said things still weren't totally over with ex Jay Cutler after filing for divorce in April 2020. In fact, the "Laguna Beach" star admitted that the duo secretly went on a few dates after splitting.
"I have to say, it's been such a rollercoaster, but it's been the brightest and the saddest, the whole experience," she told Kaitlyn Bristowe on her "Off the Vine" podcast. "Jay and I actually went on a couple dates, like, months and months and months ago, but we did."
On those dates, she realized the connection "wasn't there anymore."
"The thing with Jay and I is we aren't getting a divorce because of love lost, which made it really challenging because we were crazy about each other," the reality star said. "And so I just decided I didn't want to be in a toxic relationship anymore and I had to break it off. But that's made it hard and made me sit here and question it for a few months. But then going back and dating him a little bit made me reaffirm, like, 'No, I know that I'm doing the right decision.'"
"I come from divorced parents and I was like, 'I don't want my kids growing up thinking that this is a good relationship,'" she continued. "Because I got to see my mom remarry and be in a good relationship so that I knew what one was. I mean, I wanted my kids to see me happy. I just did. And they're better off. And they've adjusted really well, not that there's ever a perfect age for it, but they were at good ages. And so, I'm glad that it happened when it did."
At this rate, it's hard to tell if Kristin and Jay, who share three children, are even friends.
"This is what I said to my friends," she said. "I'm like, 'If I didn't have kids with Jay, I would never talk to him ever again. But now, I have to talk to him a lot.'"