The month of April was an emotional roller coaster for actress Eva Mendes, 42. Not only did she go through the death of her brother Carlos, but just 12 days later experienced the birth of her second daughter, Amada.
She opened up about both experiences in the new issue of Latina magazine, starting with the passing of her 53-year-old sibling from cancer.
"Losing my brother brought our family closer, and we were already close to begin with. So to just see everybody be there for one another and show up, I feel so lucky to have them," she gushed about her tight-knit relatives after Carlos' death on April 17.
"The Place Beyond the Pines" star barely had time to process everything before giving birth to her baby girl Amanda, with husband Ryan Gosling.
"We had a funeral service for him and that same week I had the baby," she explained. "It was really, really intense and obviously beyond heartbreaking, but also kind of beautiful."
Still, she's been trying her best to focus on her newborn and her relationship with her almost 2-year-old daughter Esmeralda.
"My older little girl is not yet 2 years old. My little one is still an infant, and right now it's really about surviving those nights and trying to enjoy this time as much as possible with them, and start the bond between Esmeralda and Amada. It's a really, really special time. I'm loving it," Eva went on.
And, she even chose Amada's name in her brother's honor, as the moniker made her emotional when thinking about him.
"My grandmother's name is Amada, and Esmeralda Amada is the name of our oldest," she explained. "We had a few names picked out for our new baby, and when she was born, we didn't feel like those names were her. We came up with a few more, even that morning, and tried them out. We were like, 'What about Viviana?' But we just kept going back to Amada. In true Latin fashion, we reuse names all the time. I used to know five sisters that were all Maria del Carmen, Maria Elena, Maria liliana...I actually told [Ryan Gosling], 'This is common in Latin culture, so it wouldn't be crazy.' So we went with Amada because it was something we kept going back to."
She added, "And it was an emotional time with the passing of my brother. We thought how beautiful to go with what made us emotional and with what felt like her. When we looked at her, we thought, 'Aww, Amadita.'"
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