"Girls" star Lena Dunham has hit a meaningful milestone in her life: she's three years sober.
Over the weekend, the actress reflected on the past several years of her life while sharing two selfies.
"So, I'm 3 years sober today. Those aren't words I ever thought I'd say, because they aren't words I thought I *needed* to say," she said in her lengthy Instagram post, "but from the moment I began this trip (sobriety is a trippy trip, that's for sure) I was focused on 3 years, as if it were this magic train that would somehow have carried me far enough from the me I was when I was using- a bad me, a sad me, a just plain not good enough me."
In posting two images, Lena noted that the first snap is a current photo. The other images in her post was taken during rehab.
"And no I don't look great (I guess you don't really focus on exfoliation when you're trying to save your own life?) but I do look like I'm trying pretty hard with that forced lil smile- trying at something like joy," she wrote. "But guess what? We're worth it even when we are too tired to try, or when we are one day or one hour away from our messiest. We are worth it even when we're right in the middle of it all."
The 34-year-old HBO star knows she's not the only one who's suffered from addiction.
"If you are caught in a cycle of pain and shame around addiction, you are so far from alone- there are so many recovering addicts who want and NEED to connect with you and who will hold it down for you no matter what," she said. "Thank you for the love you've shown me in the last 3 years as I've crawled further away from the center of the storm- but in the process I've realized it's continually storming (that's alright) AND the sun is shining too. It always was."
The post comes following Lena's chat with Drew Barrymore in which she spoke about having a hysterectomy when she 31. She also talked candidly about her addiction to anti-anxiety pills.
"I was a good old-fashioned pill head… That is what I like to call it, because I don't think that there needs to be a cute word for it because I don't think that we should have shame," she said. "It's like, if you think about it, feeling bad feels bad, feeling good feels good. No one should be ashamed about wanting to get out of pain. And what addiction is, is like the desire to get out of pain and not having the tools to get out of pain, and almost no one is given the proper tools by their parents by their teachers by the infrastructure of this country and how we deal with mental health to get out of pain."