Nicholas Brendon's issues go back a long way. The troubled actor says his recent criminal behavior is because of a battle with depression, as well as memories that haunt him from being molested as a child.
The former "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" star spoke with the Tallahassee Democrat to open up about his life and how childhood demons molded him into the person he is today.
"I hate this. I hate the way I feel right now. I hate how I've come off," he told the newspaper on March 16. "This isn't who I am."
He also said he was trying to come to terms with "a lot of the stuff I'm having to deal with in my life, inside of my head, which is not fun and it's not funny."
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His recent behavior has been anything humorous, too. Nicholas was arrested on March 13 in Florida after trashing a hotel room, causing $1,000 in damage. He had been in Tallahassee to attending a "geeks and nerds" convention, according to the convention website, when he called police claiming that his phone and wallet were stolen. When police arrived to his hotel, the manager said the actor had taken pills and alcohol and was walking around with blood on him and, the police report said, "his clothes torn and wet from a toilet overflow he created [in a hotel room]."
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The Tallahassee arrest came just a few weeks after he was arrested in Florida for trashing another hotel room following another convention. And, last October, he was arrested in Idaho following another convention.
Nicholas told the newspaper that he stopped taking his meds a while ago, which hasn't helped. He seemed remorseful that his demons have led him to to behave in such a way, but explained that one of the issues he was dealing with was being sexually abused as a child.
"When I was a kid I was molested for two years by a teacher," he revealed. "From that moment my life changed immensely and I haven't talked about it because I didn't want to use it as a crutch, but I'm seeing as I get older that it did have a huge effect on me. I just thought that I could brush it aside."
The suspect, he said, served five years in jail. He added, "If something good can come out of this, if I can talk about it and help people out, and change my behavior, that'd be great."