Kelly Osbourne is opening up about her secret battle with alcohol.
On the "Hollywood Raw with Dax Holt and Adam Glyn" podcast, the former reality TV star explained how heavy drinking affected her mental health. She also acknowledged that she was able to keep her problem easily hidden from most people.
"Unless you were in my inner, inner, inner circle, you probably didn't even know I was drinking or drunk," she said. "I was a functioning alcoholic. Full-blown functioning alcoholic. I kept my job; I kept my friends. I reached a spiritual low where I was just so morbidly unhappy and lost and directionless and just broken in every way."
It hit Kelly hard when "Fashion Police" co-star Joan Rivers passed in 2014, she said.
"It's still hard for me to even talk about it. She was my family. She was my mentor. When that ended and 'Fashion Police' stopped, I was like, 'What am I?' It was my identity," she recalled, adding that she "felt destroyed" and "hated" herself afterward.
It would take three years before she reached out for help.
"I picked up the phone Aug. 8, 2017, and called my brother and I said, 'I'm done. I need some help. Can you come to get me? I don't want to be a fat drunk loser anymore. I want to be a skinny winner.' I was ready to work on myself, and I did it," she said.
Not only has Kelly found inner happiness, but she's found love too.
"I'm dating someone. It's someone who has been in my life for like 20 years. I'm just really happy with what it is. Someone that I used to date and now we are hanging out again," she said. "I full-blown love him. That's all I'm saying. For the first time in my life, I can tell you what happiness is because I've never had it before."