Taraji P. Henson is admitting that the COVID-19 pandemic had a negative affect on her mental health and even had her temporarily contemplating suicide.
"So during this pandemic, it's been hard on all of us and I had a moment. I had a dark moment. I was in a dark place," she said on "Peace of Mind with Taraji" on Facebook Watch. "For a couple of days, I couldn't get out of bed, I didn't care. That's not me."
She suddenly thought suicide might be the best solution.
"I started having thoughts about ending it," she said. "It happened two nights in a row and I purchased a gun not too long ago, it's in a safe, and I started like, 'I could go in there right now and end it all, because I want it to be over.'"
The "Empire" actress said she even began wondering how suicide would affect those closest to her.
"I thought about my son, he's grown, he'll get over it. I didn't care," she continued. "I felt myself withdrawing. People were calling me, I wasn't responding, I didn't care."
Eventually, as her mental health quickly started deteriorating more and more, she confided in a friend. Immediately after saying the words "I thought about killing myself" out loud, she realized that she felt better and knew she wasn't going to do something drastic anymore.
"I felt like, if I don't say it, it becomes a plan," she said. "What scared me is I did it two nights in a row. First, it was like, 'I don't wanna be here.' Then I started thinking about going to get the gun and that's why when I woke up the next morning, I blurted it out."