Donald Glover took to his Instagram account on Monday, Oct. 14, to share a few brutally honest confessions with his fans on everything from his career to his love life to his own shortcomings.
"I feel like I'm letting everyone down," he wrote in all-caps on a sheet of hotel stationary. "I'm afraid people hate who I really am. I'm afraid I hate who I really am."
The Community star goes on to address his decision to leave the NBC comedy this past August, clarifying that he didn't leave the series in order to pursue his rap career, as the public previously assumed (Glover performs under the alias Childish Gambino).
"I don't wanna rap," he wrote. "I wanted to be on my own."
Glover, who turned 30 this past September, took down his website and stopped tweeting for much of the past year, though he had previously been quite active on both.
His Community costar Joel McHale told The Hollywood Reporter this past August that he could understand Glover's wishes to move on from the series.
"Obviously, Donald is a comic genius," he said of the former 30 Rock writer. "His level of talent is pretty extraordinary and rare. His rap career is exploding, so I get why he wants to focus on it."
Glover currently has a new music-centric comedy, FX series Atlanta, as well as a sophomore studio album, Because the Internet, in the works. But the actor and comedian doesn't seem too confident about either project, based on his posts.
"I'm afraid this is all an accident," he wrote of his fame. "I'm scared I won't know anything ever again. I'm scared I never knew anything. I'm afraid I'll regret this. I'm afraid this doesn't matter at all."
"I wanted to make something that says, no matter how bad you f--k up, or mistakes you've made during the year, your life, your eternity," he wrote of his upcoming album, "you're always allowed to be better. You're always allowed to grow up. If you want."
This article originally appeared on Usmagazine.com: Donald Glover Reveals Darkest Fears on Instagram: "I Feel Like I'm Letting Everyone Down"