Amanda Kloots is getting emotional on the eighth anniversary of Nick Cordero's death.
On Friday, the talk show personality shared an undated image of her and Nick in front of the "Wall of Love" in Paris. She then tugged at the heartstrings in captioning the photo.
"March 5th, Nick has been gone for 8 months today," she wrote on social media. "Oh how I miss you. Every second of every day. How I miss your smile, you grabbing me for a hug, my head on your chest when we sleep. I miss your voice. I miss walking in the house seeing you holding a guitar and working on music. I miss cooking dinner together, having conversations with you over wine. I miss standing by your gorgeous side, all 6'5" of you! I miss holding your hand and kissing your lips. I miss saying, 'I love you.'"
Nick, a Broadway star, died of COVID-19-related complications in July 2020. Prior to his death, his fight with the coronavirus was well-chronicled. Since then, Amanda, who shares 1-year-old son, Elvis, with Nick, has kept her late husband's memory alive in many ways, including using his ashes in a ring and in a ceramic vase.
"How has it been 8 months already?" she asks in her new message.
"If I could go back in time to last March, I'd hold you so tight everyday knowing it was our last month together," she wrote. "I love you forever and ever."
On March 1, Amanda said she's been "dreading" this month, as it was when everything turned for her husband. In the beginning of March 2020, the couple was happy, having just welcomed Elvis. They had also just made the cross-country move from New York City to Los Angeles. By the end of March 2020, Nick was hooked up to machines in the ICU of the hospital, which is where he'd remain for the rest of his life.
"To be honest, I've been dreading this month since January 1st, it was the start of everything," she said. "So much happened in this month a year ago, for my family, but also for us all. The loss is devastating in so many ways. This pandemic has affected everyone."
"I think a good reminder heading into this time is to be kind to one another. You never know the miles walked in someone else's shoes. The pain, the sorrow, the tears, the struggle- don't assume that you do," she continued. "We do share a lot of ourselves on social media but that doesn't mean you know what they've actually lost and dealt with this year. Love your neighbor as yourself. Support people who need help and show up as a genuine human being."