By Mark Gray
1:48pm PDT, Oct 4, 2023
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Former "90210" actress AnnaLynne McCord was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, or DID, in 2017. DID is a mental condition that sees a person inflicted with various identities that can control their behavior at different times. In other words, it means you have split personalities and they can take over your body in the blink of an eye. It can also cause memory loss, delusions or depression.
In a new interview, the actress opened up about her condition and her five personalities, all of which have taken control of her life at one time or another — one of them was even incredibly dangerous and "traumatizing," she said.
Keep reading to see what the actress said about her personalities and the traumatic way she developed them…
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AnnaLynne McCord was in the shower in 2020 when her teenage self appeared and let her know she'd seen enough of this life.
"I had not been suicidal for years. But my 13-year-old self told me that she didn't want to integrate with me," the former "Nip/Tuck" star told DailyMail.com in a September 2023 interview. "She said, 'I don't want to integrate with you, I ruined your life. I have to go away.'"
Shaken by the moment, AnnaLynne decided to record a video diary to audibly share her thoughts, but the "traumatizing" alter ego took over again.
"She said, 'I can't live anymore, I can't be here anymore.' Since everything has to be humor with me, I was like, 'Girl, just so you know, I need the body, so you can't take the body if you are going away,'" AnnaLynne recalled. "I was talking about what I was dealing with… and then all of the sudden this split came out and needed to speak on her own behalf."
AnnaLynne didn't watch the video for a year.
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When AnnaLynne McCord finally rewatched a video diary in which one of her personalities took over, that was the moment she knew she wanted to help others dealing with split personality disorders.
"When I finally looked at it again, I realized, people deal with this and they don't know what to do and they actually might end the body," she said. "I had the wherewithal to know that this was a part of me that wanted to go but not me, as crazy as that sounds because we don't understand it fully. It is unknown, but I want to make it known. And that was the moment."
Interestingly, when that 13-year-old alter ego disappeared and never came back, AnnaLynne had a week-long "grieving period."
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The personalities that took over AnnaLynne McCord's life were all very distinct: there was her dark and suicidal 13-year-old self; "Autopilot Anna" always had the "perfect tailored response at all times"; the "Domino" alter ago, Anna said, was "a very salacious young lady – a toughie"; and "Earth Mother" who was very loving.
In describing the personalities, she said, "They would talk to me and that was really fun to keep up with, just super fun. They're very colorful, a roundtable in there."
It was like "a different me's inside of me," she added.
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AnnaLynne McCord believes she developed her split personalities as a result of a childhood sexual trauma. In 2021, she told People magazine she's been sexually assaulted between the age of five and 11 by someone she knew.
"It was about disembodiment. It's a disconnection from mind to body," she said at the time.
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Being an actress didn't exactly help AnnaLynne McCord's diagnosis, as she had to play different characters. Her role in 2012's "Excision" was particularly difficult. In that film, she played a delusional high school student named Pauline.
"I played a very cerebral, disturbed, strange little girl that was very close to who I feel I am on the inside. It was very exposing, very confronting, probably a bit re-traumatizing without realizing it," she told DailyMail.com.
At the same time, she was filming CW's "90210."
"The crazy thing about it was that I wrapped that film at 2am on a Tuesday and had to be happy, crazy Beverly Hills blonde bombshell on Wednesday at noon," AnnaLynne said. "I couldn't find her, she was not accessible. I was dark, I was very deep into this character Pauline and I couldn't get [out.]"
